Without You

Under the blue skies,on the open lands
I sat beside you,my hand in your hands
I felt a connection,I was filled with a warmth,
I could see you everywhere,It felt very strong.
I didnt know what to say,I didnt know what to think,
I felt in my disconnected life,you were the missing link.
I reached out for you,to hold on to you
I wanted to gather you close,and take you to my abode.
I knew you felt the same,but still you held back,
I could see it in your eyes,
Was it not even worth the chance?
It was over even before it started,
It was the way you wanted
You never said the words,
And one day you walked off,
We were not meant to be together,
but still I dream of you,
under the blue skies,on the open lands
thinking of you and without you.

This one trigered out after reading a book, or watching a movie, don't remember...reminds me of my first poem which I had jsut written and when friends read it, they asked me who is the inspiration where as there was no one... I write this one and tried to think to whom can I dedicate this one... Came up with no name! wow, isnt it amazing!!!

I miss you & I wish you would-

Miss me too,
Let me live with you,
Love me like I love you, maybe more…
Hold me close.
Dream of me,
Be there beside me,
Take me far away,
Love me all day…
Hold my hands,
Look me in the eyes,
Fly me through the skies,
Need me till I die...
Help me find a way,
To make you stay…
Let me show you how I feel,
Let me tell you, for me what you mean…
Let me say the words, as much as I want to,
Let me talk to you, till whenever (& whenever) I want to!
Tell me what I mean to you,
Tell me if you need me too….
Tell me we’ll be together
Tell me it will last forever….

At times, just sitting idle creates so many thoguhts...some good ones, some unnecessary ones... Don't know which one this would classify as :) but this sure is a thought...there have been so many songs over the years, depicting the same thought!! here another form... dedicated to someone special!!

Tamanna

Ek tinke se the pade hue,
Apni hi jag mein khoye hue,
Ek aandhi aayi aur uda le gayi
Ek duniya nayi usne humein dikhlayi…
Kaash koi woh duniya phir mujhe lauta de
Kaash koi woh waqt phir mujhe lauta de
Sab haseen tha tab, aisa yakeen hai ab
Kaash koi woh sapne phir mujhe dikha de
Chale the ghar se door, hosla tha dil mein mazboot
Khai thi ye kasam, haarenge na kabhi hum
Kaash koi woh zazba phir mujhe lauta de.
Nikale the ek nai dagar par, na koi tha humein dar
Kaash koi woh himmat phir mujhe lauta de
Baith ti hoon sochne ab,
To lagta hai kahan badla hai jag
Wahi aandhi hai ab , jo thi tab
To kyun is baar hai mujhe itna gam…
Kyun hai chah us duniya ki,
Jahan aankh maine pehali baar kholi thi
Kyun na main bhi aandhi ban jaaon,
Jab bhi man kare ud jaaon….

kabhi kabhi man aise hi kuch sochta hai.. It was on one of these times that I wrote this one... Was just browsing through mails and it kind of became nostalgic , started missing the place where I started my new life-Bangalore.. till the time I was there I used to crib, where am I... But now that I am far away and know that it will never be home for me again...I MISS it... a lot more than I thought I ever would...

'Rishtey'

Kuch rishtey bante nahi
Kuch hum banate nahi
Kuch ban kar bigad jaate hain
Jinhe hum sanwar paate nahi
Hote hain jo dil ke kareeb,
Jaane se unke hoti hai taqleef
par rok unhe sakte nahi
saath reh jaati hai bas umeed
yunhi chalta hai carvan zindagi ka
koi bhi ise rok paaya nahi
kahin par Milan, kahin par judai
yeh baat kyun ab tak samajh na aayi…
kiska hai ye intezaar dil ko
ke nadan yeh samajhta nahi
jaane wale kab laut kar aaye hain
woh apne kab the,
woh to paraye hain
rishtey bante hain, toot jaate hain
kuch Kathi mithi yaadein chod jaate hain
sanjo lo mithi yaadein sapno mein
zindagi guzar jayegi bas aise hi palon mein
samajhte hain hum bhi shayad
barikiyan in rishton ki
Phir kyun inki udhed bun se
hum nikal paate nahi…

This one is too close to heart.. what started as a jsut a time kill with a friend back in college developed into something so meaningful we had never thought it would be that good... that was 'Rishtey' .. this one is 'Rishtey revised'... I didn't remember what we had composed .. Akshay reminded me.. felt like giving it form again and this is what I came up with, kuch purana, kuch naya, but the same essence...

Oblivion

Oblivion

In these times when I'm alone I wonder,
is there someone for whom I long?
no hopes, no dreams,
a dread feeling around me creeps
let down by all, let down by god
i dont know where i belong
i crave for results, i long for them
as if everything is suddenly muddled
i can fight no more
i wish i could lose myself in a world unknown.
utopia is not even in thoughts
for me every road is blocked
i'm lost, i cant carry on
why is it that i have to be strong
i wish i could just drift into oblivion
never to wake up in this reality.

This is how I have felt often...But this is the way I don't want to feel..At tines all one can do is write.. its like words come out by themselves and you just need to hold the pen... This is exactly what happened when I was writing this one...